Wednesday, January 30, 2008

Not good news

It's been a depressing couple of days. Before I go any further, I do not want this to be a pity party- I will deal. But I am more than a little bummed at the moment and want to get this news out there and then out-of-the-way.

In June of 06 I was diagnosed with a vertical fracture in my right leg that had some problems with healing. I was on crutches from June 06 to April 07, and in a leg brace from Sept 06 until Dec 07. Yeah, I just got out of it. Well, the other leg, the previously-referred-to-as-the-"good" leg started giving me trouble a couple months ago. Yesterday the doctor read the MRI I had last Friday- and I have the same thing now in my left leg. He is stunned by the recurrence and the fact that there was no obvious trauma to trigger the problem this time and I am looking at a long list of specialists I will have to see until they figure out what is causing this. There are only 2 treatments- anti-inflammatories, which I cannot take, and rest- none weight bearing on the leg.

So I am back on crutches, waiting for the fitting for the custom leg brace for the "new" bad leg, and back in the leg brace on the "old" bad leg to try to protect it from the pounding it will now take. Just what I always wanted- MATCHING leg braces.

So I am frustrated, mad and scared. There is no way of knowing yet how the previously-"bad"- but-now-less-bad leg will withstand being the sole support of my not insignificant weight. I work in a huge school building- it is 1/4 mile from the door to my classroom, one way, and maneuvering around on crutches last year left me perpetually tired and sore. My insurance company determined last year that I didn't need a motorized scooter or chair for school because I didn't need one in my rowhouse- "townhouse" for those of you outside Philadelphia. Yeah- if I can get the 6 feet from my bedroom to my bathroom then I don't need any help doing 2-3 miles a day in school- some logic, huh?

So, anyway, we know *what* is wrong with me, but not why, and not what is causing it. If it turns out to be the pounding the "previously good" leg took while I was protecting the "previously-bad-but-now-better-of-the-two", I will be pretty furious with the insurance company. If its something else I sure hope it is treatable/curable/fixable.

So, I am going to be grumpy, grouchy and generally miserable for a while. And yeah, I know it could be worse, and other people have it worse, and it's not forever (we hope) and all the other platitudes. But, for the moment, I am NOT A HAPPY CAMPER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

And, that's all there is to that.

There are two new bloggers in the SCS Flybaby group- make sure to check them out. I have been adding pix whenever I can to my Africam pix- it is fun to try to learn to use the SNAP software and I love having my own pictures from the drives. BTW- the current drive times are 10AM EST and 10:30PM EST, so if anyone wants to try out a drive experience, check in then at the WildEarth link.

OK- I feel better now. Off to do my evening routine, get ready for Law & Order, and have everything organized for morning so I can watch a little of tonight's WildEarth drive.

PS- blog is at 981- only 19 peeks to go until blog candy!


Lee said...

Awww....I am so sorry!! But not in a pity sort of way! I promise! Just in a "that's a stinkin' bummer and stupid insurance company decision-makers should be boiled in mono-unsaturated soy oil" kind of way!! ;) Did I at least make you smile??? Please know that you've got lots of shoulders to lean on here........well, virtual shoulders!! And I definitely am gonna try to hop on the drive tonite!!! I'll be sayin' some prayers for ya!!!

Etha said...

Oh shucks, you just don't stop do you?!! How can a bone just "crack" like that, this is totally weird. I wish I could be there to help and pamper you!!!!!
Are there any nutritional things that you can do to help it heal and not freaking break again??
BIG HUGS!!!!! and take it easy!!

Lori J said...

Oh, I hope they are able to figure out what is wrong and get it fixed for you.

BTW... counter say 1000 right now. :0)

Cathrine StClair said...

Ugghhh... that is terrible. You have every right to be frustrated, scared (and grumpy). Can you go back to the insurance company with the new info maybe? I hope they figure it out and get you better soon.

SnapHappyInkyMomma said...

I'm so sorry about your leg. I hope that you are able to make it work out with the insurance.

cookingmama said...

I can't be funny and clever like LuvLee but want you to know that I am thinking of you and praying for you.

Cel said...

You should try the insurance company again. Sometimes it takes THREE, yes, 3 tries to get it thru. Maybe you should tell them you DO need it at home! Either way, you DO need it. Please try them again so you dont reinjure the other leg!